Sometimes when you focus on something too long, you will start to lose your concentration and drift away. I am one of these people. And when i drift off, a spectrum of thoughts flashes into my brain. And these thoughts and\ or sometimes questions are usually philosophical. Example: "Jealousy is the lock that closes your heart and soul; understanding is the key that opens the vile lock." Simple, yet so powerful in laying the message across.

Morals that we learnt are stuck in our heads almost all the time. Good teachings and noble deeds are found, read, seen or heard every now and then. But, knowing them is so easy, but abiding by them, is so hard. I am sure every one has problems being morally upright ALL the time. Sometimes the nature in all of us seems to override these inculcated values. Dont you feel the rising anger, frustration, jealousy forming inside you when someone does better than you, or gets the things you so badly wanted? This example confirms this, i hope.

A boy had passed his test with flying colours. A classmate, ( i hope) who has been inculcated with moral values, is a born genius, but today's unexpected defeat angered him. Jealousy and bad thoughts started to fill his head, "deleting" all the good thoughts he has been brought up with. And as the saying goes " eyes are the windows to our inner self" ,his thoughts were seen clearly, right through like an X-Ray. His eyes changed into a nasty glare but then it quickly disappeared as the other classmate glanced at him. A serene mask was quickly put on ( by the jealous classmate) as he rose from his seat and congratulate the elated classmate. However, the handshake given was rather soft and lukewarm, and the words took quite some time to form out.

Maybe this example was not really clear in its meaning\coda ... anyway what I'm trying to reiterate is that we all go against our morals sometimes ( as mentioned before) . So nobody's perfect. And one more thing. Jealousy is the worst human fault. Seriously. Disagree if you must, but this is just my philosophical views on human nature. Thats all.


5 stations\ 2.4 tomorrow. Yikes.

Hi guys.... Finally posting! These few days have past so quickly. When i checked my email, i found out that my exams are drawing nearer and nearer.... oh dear!
Anyway, i've found the lyrics to the Sarang... Oh gi hae man hae ( bleahx). =) Enjoy!!

푸른 하늘은 눈 멀게 하고 있다 나의 심혼은 무엇인가의 이유로 아픈다 이슬 하락은 알고 있는 저 없이 나의 눈에서, 형성한다 나의 상상에서 그것은 저에 가까운 당신 같이 얻고 있다 느낀다 나는 당신이 누구를 저에게 와 사랑할 때 인지 나가 아직도 사랑을 모르는지 언제부터 당신을, 나 모른다, 나 모른다 기다리고 있는가? 기다리는 U 의 사랑 당신은 약간을 얻을 수 없다 저에 가깝 나의 사랑, 아기 나의 사랑 다른 모든 그 사람들 그들은 어떻게 사랑을 생각해서 좋은가? 나는 어떻게 모르는 유일한 사람인가? 아주 온난하고 그리고 안락하다 그리고 때때로 단것 그런 사랑에 당신은 저 항상 이었다
나는 아직도 당신이 누구를 저에게 와 사랑할 때 인지 사랑을, 나 모른다 모르는가? 기다리는 U 사랑 당신은 약간을 얻을 수 없다 저에 가깝 나의 사랑, 아기 나의 사랑 나가 그것에 대하여 생각하는 어떤 방법 나가 당신을 아주 행복할 볼 때 그리고 일 천 시간을 사랑해요 말하십시오 나는 언제 어떻게 생각해 보았다 사랑은 저에게 올 것입니다 그것은 나가 당신을 알고 있을 이래로, 여기 이미 있었다 당신을 위한 장소가 있었다 나의 심혼에서 나는 당신 이게 태어났다 당신이 저 에게로 오는 경우에, 함께 우리의 시간 이 시점에서부터 꿈이십시오. 나의 사랑 아, 나의 사랑은 저에게, 온다
Thats for people who can read korean. WARNING: May not be accurate

English sing along:
palan haneli nunbusyo...\waenji gasoomi apawa\ nado goodaeyi nungaei \yisoor maejimyong \

sangsangsogeiso na eigei\ dagaorgoman gaten gedaeler onzei bu\ tonga gidalyoso jyo ajig

salangr molaso... gedar morlaso onzei salangi orga? waiting for your love gedae zogemman do ga

gai or sun obnayo nae salang a baby my sweet heart nomuna manen salamder odokei salang

hanenji naman honza molego salanabwayo azu dadehan pogenhan daeronen darkomhan salang

ero hangsang jinhagei naegei odon gedae ajig salangr molaso... gedar morlaso onzei salangi orga?

waiting for your love gedae zogemman do ga gai or sun obnayo nae salang a baby my sweet

heart sangagman haedo nomuna hanbogan noler bordaemyong halueido su conbon salanghandan

mar onzei odokei salang i naegei olyona gi dalyonendeiei imi ongolyong gedar argo butoo gedaeler

wihan jaliga nae gasem sogei yisoyo nanen gedaeler uihaeso taonan salam geda naegeiro

ondamyong hamgei har sigani sunganbutoo gumcolom mojin nayi salang a naegei ogimamhae

Fantasy,
Tristen

今日、私は友人を失った。コンピュータが原因で。それの価値を持ってか。多分ない。とにかく…. 私は私達が引っ張ることができることを考えない。私達の友情は蜘蛛の巣壊れやすい。 風による打撃…. そしてそれは行く。 そして私達は推定上だった新しい親友あった。 それを熟考しなさい。 非常に憂うつな日。 短いポストのために残念。



PS. 唯一の幸せな事は、私によってが明日出かけているそれある。 私の親友を使って。 果樹園の道に

This is in Japanese. Just know its a melancholic post. Maybe if you know Chinese, you may get the gist of the post....

Today's history lesson was like usual. We were doing pretty mind maps of Indus Valley Civilisation and Chinese Civilisation when the unexpected happened. Right in front of me. I saw a friend throttling another friend by the neck, with cold fury. I was stunned and remain frozen, watching my friend silently bearing pain and being slowly , very slowly, sapped of air. I still remained frozen when suddenly a shrill scream unfroze me. 5 or more people were already on their feet, restraining the "killer" while some brought the "victim" away from the site. I glanced at the killer. He looked twisted;demented. It was very very scary. Throughout my 7 months, i have never seen him so twisted; demented. He was screaming "Kill! Kill!" While the other just let himself be smothered. 2 people had already sped away to inform the teacher who was not present at that point in time. I didn't know this yet and got up in a daze, increasing my gait down the stairs into the staff room with alarming speed. But i was halfway down the stairs when the two boys with the teacher arrived, all with a cold, grim look on their faces. I led them to class, but the fight had been over. The matter was settled, very, very quietly after lesson. Meanwhile we got our scholarships. I was elated to have mine, of course.
As i walked back to class, another friend started talking to me ceaselessly, ignoring the incident that had just occurred. But my thoughts were somewhere else. I was chiding myself. How could i let a friend kill another friend without doing anything? How in the world did i manage to remain frozen and watch my friend be smothered? This is a matter of life and death! I could not get over the fact that i took so long to react. Some people chose to ignore this incident completely and just watch. I could not. Even if that friend did something really mean to me in the past, i still could not stand and watch him die. At least i reacted. But not fast enough.
Thank the heavens that he is alright. He escaped with only some red marks on his neck. He was veru lucky. Though he didnt blame me and even told me that i was not involved, i still could not shirk off the guilty feeling in me. I should have been the first one to go to his aid. I should have.
I will, next time.Til then.

Fantasy,
Tristen

Okies... Can finally get on the comp! Sorry i couldn't post for the past few days... really busy!
Guess what? Francis and I are confirmed prefects!!1 =) Grats to francis XD and me ( clap clap). Me? A prefect? Yea! A week ago, i was like reading a book ( duh) during morn assembly when Hafiz ( head prefect) stepped up to and said" You're Tristen right?" I nodded. he then congratulated me on being a new prefect. I was stunned. Why inform me so late? I had given up hope (hahaha.) A blessing.
Anyways theres this PREFECT WORKSHOP ON THIS SATURDAY!!!! MY BIRTHDAY!!!!
I was SUPPOSED to GO WITH SEB!!!! Not fair. WE have to delay the outing for a week. noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo............................Sigh.... What can i do???

Anyway, ive been feeling stupid about him(s??). Its like, we suffocate! Need some space, i think. And for the other him, I'm sorry. I really cant help getting a little green... That guy's intellect and amazing brain! Gosh...
Theres a test for CL and Particulate Nature of elements, so i really have to go now. This counts as an update, right????????

fantasy,
Tristen

Hi... just have to make this a quickie...
just done summary and lit jotter bk design ( its really screwed!). It was supposed to be nice random scrawling but in the end it turned out to be a horrid, disjointed piece. Maybe some people will think its nice, but on the other hand, some people will think its horrid. lol. Maybe it wasnt THAT bad!
11 more days to my birthday! Cant believe Lie Wen forgot! Thank god Seb remembered, if not i would have been quite angry (hahahahahahha). Possible dest. Hereen? Seb needs a makeover. (no offence, bestie!)Lie Wen cant make it [ duh. always. =( ] SO maybe its just two of us. Anyone coming? ha ha. Kidding. Its only two of us!! ( Sorry!)

Anyway, I was walking home from school today slurping a popsicle( treat from Lie Wen, thanks!) when i saw an angsana seed. It floated from the tree and was about to reach a patch of grass when the wind died and it plopped onto the cement. And then a bicycle came along and rolled over it. I felt sad for the seed. It might be lame, but the emotions weren't.
It was soooooo close to almost achieving growth, but it didn't. Take it as an example to your academic life. When you worked and toiled so furiously for good results, it didn't come. Take a minute to soak up the disappointment. Sad? isn't it?
Coda? Work hard and pray to succeed. That's all. Guess it wasn't really a quickie after all. =P